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ME CHANDIGARH KA REHNE WALA HU, ME 2007 SE HI SAI BABA KE VART RAKHTA THA, OR ROZ SAI CHALISA KA PATH KARTA THA, JIS KARAN MUJE SAI CHALISA PURA YAAD HO GYA THA. PESHE SE ME EK ADVOCATE HU, KYOKI HAMARE KHANDAAN ME PEHLE KOI ADVOCATE NAHI THA, ESLIYE MERA KAAM BHI KUCHH JYADA ACHHA NAHI CHAL RAHA THA, ME APNE DOST KE SATH INCOME TAX KA KAAM KARTA THA, MERI SHADI KE BAAD MERE MA BAAP KI MERI BIBI SE NAHI BANTI THI, JABKI HUM EK SATH HI REHTE THEY PAR MERI APNE MA BAAP KE BICH JYADA BAAT NAHI HOTI THI. SIRF PUBLIC OR RISHTEDARO KO DIKHANE KE LIYE HI THODI BAHUT BAAT HI HO PAATI THI.
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MERE DUSRA ANUBHAV IS BAAT KO LEKAR HAI KI KIS TARAH SE MERE RISHTEDAAR NE APNI CANCER KI BIMAARI MUJHE TRANSFER KARNI CHAHI.
MERE PAPA 2008 ME SARKAARI SERVICE SE RETIRE HUYE THEY, KINTU HAMARI APAS ME BAAT NAHI HOTI THI, MERI MATA JI MOHALLE KE AAS PAAS KI JANANIYO KE SATH COMMITTEE DALTI THI, AUR GHATE PAR HI COMMITTEE UTHA LETI THI, OR KUCHH LOG SHURU ME HI COMMITTEE UTHA KAR HI BHAG JAATE THEY, IS LIYE ME NA TO MUHALEE ME KISI KE GHAR JATA THA OR NA HI KISI KA APNE GHAR ANA PASAND KARTA THA, HAMARE UPPAR BAHUT JYADA KARZ RAHTA THA, IS LIYE MERE GHAR WALE MUJHE PASAND NAHI KARTE THEY, JISKA FAYDA MERE KIRAYEDAR NE UTHAYA. MERI KIRAYEDARNI NE MERE MA BAAP KO APNE CHUNGAL ME LE RAKHA THA, VO KABHI BHI HAME EK NAHI HONE DETI THI, MERI WIFE KO MERE PARENTS KE KHILAF BHADKATI THI, OR MERE MERE PARENTS KO MERE OR MERI WIFE KE KHILAF, 8 OCTOBER 2009 KO MERI MA KI TABIYAT KHARAB HO GAYI ME UNKO HOSPITAL LE KAR GAYA JAHA PAR UNKO ADMIT KAR LIYA GAYA SHAM KO ME GHAR AA GAYA OR MERI BAHAN MERI MA KE PAAS RUK GAYI, AGLE DIN MERI BAHAN SUBAH BAPIS AA GAYI USNE HAMARE GHAR AA KAR HAME BATANA CHAHA PAR MERI KIRAYEDAARNI NE MERI BAHAN SE KAHA KI ABHI ME SO RAHA HU, ME BAAD ME BATA DUNGI, LEKIN MERI KIRAYEDARNI NE MUJHE NAHI BATAYA, AGAR BATA DETI TO ME THODI JALDI HOSPITAL CHALA JATA. KHAIR ME 11 BAJE KHANA LEKAR HOSPITAL CHALA GYA, US SAMAY MUMMY KI TABIYAT JAYADA KHARAB THI DOCTOR NE UNKO PGI REFER KAR DIYA THA, ME MUMMY KO LEKAR PGI GAYA OR MUMMY KO EMERGENCY ME ADMIT KARWA DIYA, DOCTOR NE UNKO KUCHH TREATMENT DIYA, IS SAMAY ME, PAPA OR HAMRI KIRAYEDARNI MUMMY KE PASS HI THEY KYOKI MUMMY NE KIRAYEDARNI KO APNI BETI BANA RAKHA THA. AB MERI MUMMY NE MUJHE APNE GALE SE LAGAYA OR UNKI AANKHO ME AANSU THEY, VO BOLI MUJHE MAAF KAR DENA MENE TUMHARE SATH THEEK NAHI KIYA HAI, MENE UNSE KAHA KI KOI BAAT NAHI JO HO GAYA HAI USKO BHOOL JAO, SAB THEEK HO JAYEGA, TAB MERI MA NE MUJH SE KAHA KI TUM ROTI KHA LO, BHUKH LAGI HOGI, ME ROTI KHANE KE LIYE BAHAR PARK ME AA GAYA, JAB 15 MINUTE BAAD ME EMERGENCY WARD ME GAYA TO PAPA MUMMY KO PUMP SE SANS DE RAHE THEY, MENE JA KAR PUMP SE MUMMY KO SANS DENA SHURU KIYA, ME TAKRIBAN 30 MINUTE TAK APNI MA KO PUMP SE SANS DETA RAHA, MERI HATHELI ME BAHUT JOR SE DARD HONE LAGA, AAJ BHI JAB ME VO DIN YAAD KARTA HU TO MERI HATHELIYO ME DARD HONE LAGTA HAI AAJ BHI ME VO DARD MAHSUS KAR SAKTA HU. 3 BAJE KE KARIB MERI MA KI DEATH HO GAYI. UNKI DEATH KE DO DIN KE BAAD HI HAMARE GHAR ME LOGO NE PESE MAGNA SHURU KAR DIYA KI TUMHARE MA BAAP SE HUMNE ITNE PESE LENE HAI, JO BHI PESE MAGNE AATE VO YE HI KEHTE KI KIRAYEDARNI KE SAMNE PESE DIYE THEY HAR CASE ME VO HI GAWAH BAN RAHI THI. KUCHH LOGO KE TO MENE PESE DENE KO SAHMATI DE DI, PAR ME HAR KISI KE PESE NAHI DE SAKTA THA, IS LIYE LOGO NE MUJE DHAMKANA SHURU KAR DIYA, KAI BAAR POLICE CASE BHI HUA, US SAMAY MUJHE BAHUT DAR LAGTA THA, BESHAK ME ADVOCATE THA PAR MUJHE POLICE CASE KA KOI ANUBHAV NAHI THA. US SAMAY KOI BHI MERA SATH NAHI DETA THA. MERE MAMA MAMI KABHI-KABHI MERA SATH DE DETE THEY, EK DO BAAR VO MERE LIYE POLICE STATION BHI GAYE THEY, IS LIYE ME UNKE AHSAAN KE TALE DABA HUA THA. MERE KIRAYEDAR NE PAPA SE BAHUT SAARE BLANK CHEQUE LE RAKHE THEY, AUR UNHONE PITA JI APNE VASH ME KARKE GHAR KI POWER OF ATTORNEY APNE NAAM KARWA LI THI AUR LAKHO RUPAY KE AFFIDAVIT PAR PAPA KE SIGN KARWA RAKHE THEY, VO MUJHE DHAMKANE KE LIYE BADMASHO KO MERE GHAR BHEJTE REHTE THEY, OR MERE KIRAYEDAAR KEHTE THEY KI VO MERE GHAR KA KABZA KISI BADMASH KO BECH DEGE, MERE SAALE KE EK DOST THA VO MUJHE PEHLE PATIALA EK BABA KE PAAS LEKAR GAYA US BABA KE PASS KSHETARPAAL KI SIDHI THI, MENE US BABA KO KAHA KI YA TO MERA GHAR KHALI KARWA DO YA MERI KIRAYEDARNI KO APNI SHAKTIYO SE MARWA DO. USNE KAHA KI APNE GHAR JAO YA TO TUMHARI KIRAEDARNI TUMHARA GHAR CHHOD KAR CHALI JAYEGI YA USKI DEATH HO JAYEGI, LEKIN ESA KUCHH NAHI HUA, MENE JAB BABA KO PHONE KIYA TO BABA NE KAHA KI TUMHARA KAAM KARNA MERE BAS KI BAAT NAHI HAI TUMHARI KIRAYEDARNI KE PAAS JO SHAKTI HAI VO MUJH SE JYADA SHAKTI SHALI HAI TUM KISI OR SE APNA KAAM KARWA LO, PHIR MERE SAALE KA DOST MUJE AMRITSAR LEKAR GYA, VAH BABA APNE AAP KO SHAH JI KEHTA THA, VAH JAAT SE CHURA THA, SHAYAD THODA LALCHI BHI THA, USNE MERE SE KAHA KI TUMHARE GHAR PAR JO SHAKTI HAI VO BAHUT SHAKTI SHALI HAI USKO VAHA SE HATANA BAHUT MUSHKIL HAI LEKIN ME YE KAAM KAR SAKTA HU USNE KUCHH SAMAN LIKH KAR DIYA JO KI TAKRIBAN 4000/- RUPAY KA THA JISME BAKRE KI KALEJI OR DARU BHI THI. HUM USKO SAMAN DEKAR KI RISHTEDAR KE GHAR AA GAYE KYOKI USNE HAME SUBAH AANE KE LIYE KAHA THA, JAB SUBAH HUM USKE PAS GAYE TO USNE KAHA KI USNE HAMARA KAAM KAR DIYA HAI OR USNE KUCHH MAH KI DAAL KE DAANE HAME DIYE OR KAHA KI HUM USKE KAMRE ME YE DAANE DAAL DE JIS SE USKO HAMARE GHAR ME DHAR LAGNE LAGEGA OR VO GHAR CHHOD KAR CHALI JAYEGI. HAMNE ESE HI KIYA KUCHH DINO KE BAAD HAMARI KIRAEDARNI APNA THODA SA SAMAN LEKAR KISI OR JAGAH SHIFT HO GAYI LEKIN USNE HAMARE GHAR PAR TALA LAGA DIYA , OR KEHNE LAGI KI KYA HUA AGAR ME YAHAN NAHI RAH SAKTI ME MAKAAN KA KABJA KISI KO BECH KAR GHAR KI CHABIYA KISI BADMASH KO DE DUNGI, JIS KARAN MENE 2010 ME COURT ME EVICTION KA CASE FILE KAR DIYA. LEKIN VO BABA MUJE KAFI TANG KARNE LAGAA THA KABHI KEHTA THA KI GAADI BHEJ DO MENE SHAHAR GHUMNE AANA HAI, KABHI KEHTA MERA PHONE RECHARGE KARWA DO , SHURU SHURU ME TO ME USKI BAAT MAAN LETA THA KINTU PHIR MENE USKI CALL PICK KARNI BAND KAR DI, KYOKI ME US PAR LAGBHAG 50000/- RUPAY SE JYADA KHARACH KAR CHUKA THA. DHIRE DHIRE MEHANAT KARNE PAR MENE APNA SARA KARJA UTTAR DIYA. 2012 ME MAMA KE BETE KI SHADI ME MENE SONE KI ANGUTHI SHAGUN ME DI, JANUARY 2013 ME MAMA JI KA ACCIDENT HO GAYA TO MENE HELP KI TOR PAR UNKO 15000/- DIYE OR APNA BLOOD BHI UNKE LIYE DONATE KIYA KYOKI UNKE MERE UPAR KUCHH AHSAAN THEY OR ME VO AHSAAN UTARNA CHAHTA THA. OR DECEMBER 2013 MENE KIRAYEDAARO SE APNA GHAR BHI KHALI KARWA LIYA. MAY 2014 ME JAB HUM MAMA JI KE GHAR GAYE TO UNOHONE HAME BATAYA KI MAMA JI KE GALE ME CANCER DETECT HUA HAI, TO MENE UNKO KAHA KI AAP TENTION MAT LO ME LOAN LEKAR APKO 3 LAKKH RUPAY DE DETA HU AAP UNKA TREATEMENT MAX HOSPITAL ME KARWA LO, TO UNHONE KAHA KI HUM PGI ME HI ILAJ KARWAENGE, MENE KAHA KI THEEK HAI MERE TARAF SE JO BHI MADAD APKO CHAHIYE HO AAP MUJHE BATA DENA. HUM HAFTE ME EK DO BAAR MAMA JI KA HAAL CHAL PUCHNE UNKE GHAR CHALE JAATE THEY, DHEERE DHEERE MAMA JI KI TABIYAT KHARAB HOTI CHALI GAYI TUB BADE HOSPITAL WALO NE UNKO HOSPITAL KI DUSRI BRANCH JO KI KISI OR SECTOR ME THI VAHA SHIFT KAR DIYA, APNI JINDGI KA ANTIM MAHINA MAMA JI NE VAHI BITAYA. EK DIN DUPAHAR KO MERE MAMA KI BETI KA MUJHE PHONE AAYA KI SHAM KO HOSPITAL AANA HUMNE KISI PEER KI DARGAH PAR MATHA TEKNE JANA HAI AAP MERE SATH CHALNA KYOKI VHA PAR EK JIMMEDAR BANDA CHAHIYE HAI, MENE KAHA KI KOI BAAT NAHI ME AA JAUNGA . ME 4 BAJE APNA SCOOTER LEKAR HOSPITAL PAHUNCH GAYA. TO USNE MUJHE BATAYA KI HUM SCOOTER PAR NAHI CAR ME CHALENGE. MENE KAHA KI THEEK HAI, JAB ME CAR ME BETHE LAGA TO MENE DEKHA KI JO MAMA KI BETI KA HUSBAND HAI VO CAR ME NAHI BETHA, MENE US SE PUCHHA KI KYA TUMHARA PATI NAHI CHALEGA HAMARE SATH TO USNE KAHA KI NAHI, UNKI TABIYAT KHARAB HAI, MENE KAHA KI KOI BAAT NAHI HUM HI CHAL PADTE HAI, JAB ME GAADI ME BETHA TO MENE DEKHA KI GAADI ME MERI MAMA KI LADKI KA MAMA OR EK KOI OR ADMI BHI THA, MENE US SE PUCHA KI YE ADMI KON HAI TO USNE MUJHE BATAYA KI YE VO ADMI HAI JISKO US JAGAH KA RASTA MALOOM HAI, YE SUN KAR MERA MATHA THANKA, MENE SOCHA JISKO KAAM HAI VO MERE MAMA KI LADKI JA RAHI HAI, JISNE GAADI CHALANI VO USKA MAMA JA RAHA HAI, JISNE RASTA BATANA HAI VO SATH JA RAHA HAI, PAR ME UNKE SATH KYO JA RAHA HU, MERI YAHAN PAR KYA JARURAT HAI, JAROOR KUCHH NA KUCHH GADBAD HAI. MERE MUN ME BAHUT SI SHANKAYE UTPAN HO RAHI THI, UN DINO ME SAI BABA KE VART RAKHTA THA OR HAMESHA HI SAI CHALISA JAPTA REHTA THA, MENE GAADI ME BEDHATE HI MUN HI MUN SAI BABA KA JAAP JAPNA SHURU KAR DIYA AUR KISI SE KOI BAAT NAHI KI SHAHAR SE KOI 30-35 KM DUR HUM KISI GAON ME PAHUCH GAYE, VAHA PAR BAHUT SE DEVATAON KA MANDIR THA OR PEERO KI DARGAH BHI THI, VAHA PAR LAKH DATA, BHERO BABA, KALI MATA OR NAHAR SINGH KA MANDIR BHI THA, SAB JAGAH MATHA TEKNE KE PAAS HUM US JAGAH PAR JAA KAR BAITH GAYE JAHA PAR SAB LOG APNI APNI SAMASYA BATA RAHE THEY, JUB MERE MAMA KI BETI KA NUMBER AAYA TO BABA NE US SE PUCHHA KI TUMHARE SATH JIMMEDAR AADMI KON HAI JO KUCHH GADBAD HONE PAR US MUSIBAT KO JHELEGA, TO MAMA KI BETI NE MERI OR ISHARA KARNA CHAHA TO ME BOL PADA KI ME KYO JIMMEDAR HU, ME TO ABHI BACHCHE HU, ISKE MAMA SATH ME AAYE HAI VO JIMMEDAR BANE, TO MERE MAMA KI BETI BOLI KI NAHI HUM APKO JIMMEDAR BANA KAR SATH LAYE HAI, TAB US BABA NE US KO DATA KI TUM IS SAREEF INSAAN KO YAHAN JIMMEDAR BANA KAR LAYE HO, KYA ISKE BIWI BACHCHE NAHI HAI, KYA ISKA PARIVAAR NAHI HAI, TUMHE SHARAM AANI CHAHIYE, AGAR ME TUMHARE BAAP KI CANCER KI BIMARI UTAR DUNGA OR AGAR USKO KOI DUSRI JAGAH NAHI MILI TO VO ISKO PAKAD LEGI TO ISKE PARIVAAR KA KYA HOGA. USNE US SE KAHA KI TUM ESA KARO AGLE HAFTE BIRBAAR KO DIWALI KE DIN MERE PAAS AANA APNE BHAIYO KO SATH LEKAR, KYOKI JAYDAAD TO UNKO HI MILANI HAI IS LIYE YE KHATRA BHI VO HI UTHAYE. BABA KI BAAT SUNKAR MERE RONGATE GHADE HO GAYE, KI YE ISNE MERE SATH KYA KIYA, MUJHE US PAR BAHUT GUSSA AA RAHA THA, LEKIN ME KUCHH NAHI BOLA. KUCHH DER BAAD HUM VAPIS CHAL PADE TO USNE GAADI ME HI MUJHE KAHA KI BHAIYA AAP AGLE BIRBAAR MERE SATH AA JANA, MENE USE TAALNE KI LIYE US SE KAHA KI MERE LIYE MUSHKIL HOGA KYOKI AGLE HAFTE ME TEEN CHAR DIN KE LIYE DELHI JA RAHA HU ME DIWALI KE BAAD HI BAPIS AAUNGA, USKE MAMA NE BHI USKE SATH JANE SE YE KEH KAR MANA KAR DIYA KI AGLE HAFTE ME PIND JA RAHA HU DIWALI KE LIYE IS LIYE ME BHI TUMHARE SATH NAHI JA SAKTA. BAPIS HOSPITAL PAHUNCH KAR MENE APNA SCOOTER UTHAYA AUR BAPIS GHAR KI OR CHAL PADA , ME SIDHA GHAR NA JAKAR PEHLE DUSRE SECTOR ME SAI BABA KE MANDIR ME GAYA OR ADHA GHANTA VAHI BAITHA RAHA, TAKI AGAR KOI NEGETIVE SHAKTI MERE SATH AA GAYI HO TO US SE PICHHA CHHUDAYA JA SAKE TAB TAK RAAT KE 10 BAJ CHUKE THEY. JAB MENE GHAR AAKAR APNI WIFE KO YE BAAT BATAYI TO VO BADI PARESHAN HO GAYI OR BOLI KI AAJ SUBAH SE HI MERE MUN ME AJEEB SI PRESHANI THI MUN ME AJEEB AJEEB SE VICHAR AA RAHE THEY, TUB VO BOLI KI AAJ KE BAAD UNKE GHAR JAANE KI KOI AVASHYKTA NAHI HAI. OR PHIR MENE HAAL CHAAL PUCHHNE KE LIYE UNKE GHAR JANA BAND KAR DIYA, AGLE BIRBAAR DIWALI SE EK DIN PEHLE BUDHVAR KO ME OR MERI WIFE KHARIDARI KARNE KE LIYE BAZAAR GAYE HUYE THEY, GHAR PAR MERE BACHHE OR PAPA THEY, BETA MERE SATH HI THA, PICHE SE MERE MAMA KI BETI, MITHAI OR GIFT HAMARE GHAR DE GAYI, JAB HUM GHAR PAHUNCHE TO MERI BETI NE BATAYA KI BUA AAYI THI VO DIWALI KI MITHAI OR GIFT DE GAYI HAI, MENE OR WIFE NE SOCHA KI ISKA BAAP MARNE WALI HAALAT ME PADA HAI OR YE YAHAN PAR HAME GIFT DETE HUYE GHUM RAHI HAI VO BHI 15 KM DUR AAKAR. MERI WIFE NE MUJH SE KAHA KI ME YE SAMAN MANDIR ME RAKH AAO, LEKIN US SAMAY MANDIR BAND HO GYA THA IS LIYE MENE VO SAMAN MANDIR KE PAAS HI EK DUSBIN ME FEK DIYA OR APNE GHAR AA GAYA. GHAR AAKAR MENE UNKE PARIVAAR KE SAARE MOBILE OR LANDLINE NUMBER BLOCK LIST ME DAAL DIYE. AB UNKA MUJH SE SAMPARK NAHI HO PATA THA, LEKIN UNHONE MUJE KAB KAB CONTACT KARNE KI KOSHISH KI HAI IS BAAT KA MESSAGE MUJHE AA JATA THA. JYADA TAR UNKI CALL BIRBAAR KO HI AATI THI US BABA KE PASS JAANE KE LIYE, LEKIN ME UNKI CALL PAR KOI DHYAN NAHI DETA THA. OR 14 NOVEMBER 2014 ME MERE MAMA JI KI CANCER KI BIMARI SE DEATH HO GAYI.
MERI BHABHI NE MUJHE PHONE KARKE BATAYA KI TUMHARE MAMA JI KI DEATH HO GAYI HAI, YE SUN KAR MENE APNI WIFE SE PUCHHA KI AB KYA KARE TO USNE KAHA KI JANA TO PADEGA HI RISHTEDAARI HAI LOGO KO KYA JAWAB DEGE. US SAMAY KOI SHAM KE 4 BAJE KA WAKT THA, BODY HOSPITAL ME HI THI, JO KI AGLE DIN SUBAH HI LAYI JANI THI, LEKIN KAAFI RISHTEDAAR AA CHUKE THEY, UNKE REHNE KE LIYE BISTARE KA ARRANGEMENT BHI KARNA THA KYO KI US SAMAY SARDI PADNI SHURU HO GAYI THI, RAAT KO HUM BARAMADE ME HI EK PATLI SI DARI PAR SO GAYE EK PATLI SI RAJAI LEKAR. SUBAH JAB ME UTHA TO MERI GARDAN OR PEETH ME BADA DARD HO RAHA THA. PHIR BHI HAMNE SANSAKAR KA SARA KAAM KIYA OR 2 BAJE KE KAREEB UNKA SANSKAAR KAR DIYA, SANSKAR KE 3000/- RUPAY BHI MENE HI DIYE KYOKI US SAMAY KISI KE PAAS PESE NAHI THEY. USKE KE BAAD ME KABHI KABHI HI UNKE GHAR GAYA, LEKIN MERI PEETH OR GARDAN ME DARD RAHNA AB SHURU HO GYA THA, ABHI MAMA KI DEATH KO EK MAHINA HI HUA THA MERE MAMA KI BETI NE JAYDAD KE BATWARE KE LIYE APNI MA OR BHAIYO PAR CASE KAR DIYA, MAMA KE BADE LADKE NE BHI MAMI SE IS BAAT PAR JHAGDNA SHURU KAR DIYA KI USKE MAMA KE ILAJ PAR 80000/- RUPAY KHARACH HUYE HAI VO VAPIS KAR DO.MAMI NE MUJSE HELP MANGI TO MENE UNKO US SAMAY 10000/- DIYE US SE PEHLE BHI EK DO BAAR ME BACHCHE KE FEES KE LIYE BHI UNKO PESE DE CHUKA THA. AB ME UNKE APSI JHAGDE SE PRESHAN HO CHUKA THA IS LIYE MENE UNKE GHAR JANA CHHOD DIYA, MARCH KE EXAM KE BAAD MERI WIFE BACHO KO LEKAR APNE GHAR GAYI HUYI THI, OR ME GHAR PAR AKELA THA ACHANK MUJHE GALE KI RIGHT SIDE THODI CHUBHAN SI MAHSOOS HUYI MENE CHHUKAR DEKHA TO YE EK KNOT THI, MAMA JI KE LEFT SIDE THI MERE RIGHT SIDE PAR HO GAYI THI, ME BAHUT GHABRA GAYA, MENE APNE OFFICE ME JAKAR APNE DOST SE DISCUSS KIYA, USNE BHI CHHU KAR DEKHA TO USKO BHI MEHSOOS HUYI, TAB TAK MUJHE KABAZ BHI REHNE LAGI THI, APRIL ME MERA PARIVAAR BAPIS AA GAYA, TAB MENE APNI WIFE SE SARI BAAT DISCUSS KARI, AGLE SHANIVAAR KO HUM APNE GHAR SE KOI 30 KM KOI PANDIT REHTA THA, USKE PAAS GAYE OR USKO APNI SAMASAYA KE BAARE ME BATAYA, JAB USNE DHAYAN LAGA KAR DEKHA TO USNE BATAYA KI KISI NE BAHUT HI KHATARNAAK CHEEZ BHEZI HAI, TUMHE TO MARCH MONTH TAK MAR JANA CHAHIYE THA PATA NAHI TUM AB TAK KESE JINDA HO. PHIR USNE KAHA KI ME KUCHH SAMAN LIKH KAR DETA HU YE LAKAR KAALE KAPDE ME DAAL KAR 40 DIN TAK APNE GHAR ME ESI JAGAH PAR RAKHNA HAI JAHA PAR KISI KA HATH NA LAGE OR 40 DIN KE BAAD ISKO CHALTE PAANI ME BAHA DENA. VO SAMAN LEKAR MENE APNE GHAR PAR RAKH DIYA, LEKIN MERI TASALI NAHI HUYI, IS LIYE HAMARE GHAR KE PAAS EK MUSALMAAN REHTA THA JO YE SAB ILAM JANTA THA. MENE US SE BAAT KI JAB USNE BHI DHYAN LAGA KAR DEKHA TO USNE BHI YAHI BAAT BATAYI KI KISI NE BAHUT KHATARNAAK CHEEZ BHEZI HAI TUMHARE LIYE, ME TUMHARA ILAJ KARUNGA LEKIN TUMHE KUCHH DIN LAGATAR MERE PAS AANA HOGA. ME LAGATAAR DO HAFTE USKE PAAS JATA RAHA. 40 DIN KE BAAD MENE VO SAMAN CHALTE PAANI ME BAHA DIYA, TAB TAK JUNE MONTH KI VACATION SHURU HO GAYI THI, BACHE PEHLE HI PIND CHALE GAYE THEY APNI NAANI KE PAS, OR PAPA GAON GAYE HUYE THEY MERI BAHAN KE PASS. 4 JUNE 2015 KO HUM HOSPITAL GAYE OR MENE DOCTOR KO APNI KNOT DIKHAYI DOCTOR NE KAHA KI AAP SHANIVAR KO AA JAO DR. TAIMUR APKI KNOT NIKAL DEGE. SHANIVAAR KO ME OR MERI WIFE HOSPITAL GAYE DR. TAIMUR NE HUMSE OPERATION KA KUCHH SAMAAN MANGWAYA. HUM SAMAN LEKAR AAYE DR. TAIMUR NE OPERATION ROOM ME MUJHE BULAYA OR TAKRIBAN 40 MINUTE ME SURGERY KARKE MERE GALE SE VO KNOT NIKAL DI. KAAFI DINO TAK ME BUJHA BUJHA SA RAHA KI PATA NAHI KYA HOGA JYADATAR TIME ME MAN HI MAN SAI BABA KA JAAP KARTA REHTA THA. DO HAFTE KE BAAD MERE TAANKE BHI KHUL GAYE. NOVEMBER 2015 ME MENE BHRAHM KUMAR RISHI SE BEEJ MANTRA KI DIKSH LE LI AB ME ROZ SIDH KUNJIKA KA JAAP KARTA HU, MENE OM NAMAH SHIVAY KA BHI SAVA LAKH JAP KIYA HAI , NAVARAN MANTRE KA BHI 51000 JAP KIYA HAI, MENE KABHI KISI KA BURA NAHI KIYA HAI PHIR USNE MERE SATH ESA KYO KIYA.
AB MENE KISI BHI RISHTEDAAR PAR VISHBAS KARNA CHHOD DIYA HAI, AB HUM KISI KE GHAR KI KOI BHI CHEEZ NAHI KHATE HAI, AGAR KISI RISHTEDAR KE KISI FUNCTION KI KOI MITHAI YA KOI CHEEZ AATI HAI TO HUM YA TO US CHEEZ KO GAYE KO KHILA DETE HAI YA MANDIR ME CHADA DETE HAI, PAR KHUD NAHI KHATE.
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